Why not rather find yourself a rich sugardaddy and leave the docs alone. There's this fantasy perpetuated in the religion that if you're good and pure enough, that any man you meet would eventually see the truth and join kanda church for you.
All I can recommend, as a docs wife of nearly 30 years, is prayer or to book a few sessions with a psychologist. My wife and her family are a good example of this.
It broke my shelf, we left as an entire family, and our marriage is better than ever.